hello world :/ been up all nite choking on misery ... thinking about everything ... its hard to breath when u have nothing to breath for i wish i was like kara.. or charley.... people that see the beautiful side of the world but im not i see beauty in people... and through out this crappy year out of school i have lacked that in my life friend that i once knew and loved, vanished people that could make me happy when i was crying inside i find it hard to look at a door and see its full potential i just see a brown door... i use to be so free.. a rebel... a wild thing, loud, someone who would hug people on the street just because i wanted to i made friends easily... loved them all too but now when i want to make friends i find it hard! hard to make that connection... difficult, because i have stayed here so long in this apartment. my CAGE i have come to relies that its my own fault i put myself here i lock myself away from risk and failure, because of fear fear of being rejected once again and though i know it wasn't you that rejected me i still keep myself locked away from seeing the doors full potential the beauty in the mundane